You know those moments when you know that you have so much
to say but you cannot quite find the words that will do it justice? That is
totally the spot that I am in. I have been quite reflective the last couple of
months. I have spent a lot of time evaluating this past year, my relationships,
where my heart is at, how much I have to really give of myself. I am a planner.
I like to have goals, things that I am working on, working towards. So when
asked what I am striving for in 2014, I have a lot on my mind and not sure how
to say it.
I live my life without regrets. I share a majority of the
good (not always the bad but I haven’t really had much bad in the past couple
of years) with all of you whether it is through the blog or Instagram. I share
my heart, my thoughts, my life and I am open and answer questions honestly when
asked. My life is far from perfect but I am really HAPPY! It truly fills my
heart knowing that people resonate with me, that they connect with what I am
going through. Being able to connect with people over every day life, our
fitness journeys, dating ups and downs and any other random thing is truly
rewarding for me. I definitely struggle
at times with what I share publically. I try to keep it real but I have learned
that there are certain things that I need to keep guarded and fiercely close to
me (my love life being one of them).
I have met some incredible people this year. I continue to
be very purposeful in who I let in, whom I become close with. I have found that
surrounding myself with people that challenge me to be better while loving me
unconditionally is the best. I am beyond blessed that I am able to cultivate
these relationships and pray that they feel the same about me.
I’ve also met some awful people. I have seen the worst in
others. I have learned that people are not always who they say that they are. I
have been pushed to my limit, been tested and let go of a lot. It is hard.
Painful. Humbling. It also made me
stronger, wiser and in the weirdest way more trusting and loving. I learned how
powerful the heart is. I am so proud that I am continually getting better when
I could let these things make me bitter.
It’s been over two years since I decided to change my life,
lose some weight and incorporate fitness into my every day routine. It has been such a rewarding journey. I still
have not met my ultimate weight loss goal but I am healthy (like cleared of so
many issues healthy), fit and happy. I have a work out partner, accountability
and use my workouts to relieve stress. It is an amazing outlet and I am beyond
thankful for all of the support.
My professional life really came together at the end of
2013. I am involved in some incredible projects. I have been given more
responsibility with Pollinate Media and I am so excited with my future with
this company. I also got back into Fashion and began selling Stella and Dot
jewelry, which I love doing. I am consulting for a non-profit, giving back and
that feels incredible. And I still have this blog and se some exciting things
happening here. I am busy, striving and still have freedom to just live.
With that said, let's summarize the last two years. In 2012 I made A LOT of changes in my life. I focused on me for the first time ever. 2013 was all about maintaining changes, cultivating relationships and having a lot of fun. I set many goals and I accomplished most of them. Although after May I think I completely forgot what they were. (You can read last year's post here). 2014 feels like it is going to be my break out year. Instead of sharing goals and setting New Years resolutions, I am going to share a word that will describe where my focus will be in my personal life, professional life and my physical/fitness journey.
Personal
My word for my personal life is Purposeful.
I want to be purposeful in the decisions that I make, the people I let into my life, the relationships I cultivate and how much I give of myself.
Professional
My word for my professional life is Balance.
My professional life is made up of four "jobs" that I truly love! It has taken a couple years to get to the place but it has all come together. I need to stay balanced in my time management, in the way that I think (business minded vs. entrepreneurial spirit) and with the projects I take on.
Physical/Fitness Journey
My word for my physical/fitness journey is Disciplined.
My fitness journey really is a habit at this point. I work out for my mental health just as much as my physical health. I work out 4-5 times a week, I lift, I seek appropriate counsel when I hit a plateau or need motivation but I would never call myself disciplined in this area. I need to hone in on my diet, really tailor my work outs for definition and stay focused on my ultimate goal.
Whatever you decide to do in 2014, I wish you all of the best! I am so thankful for all of you that care, follow along and pretend that my life is way more interesting than it really is! ;) Haha.
Let's go out and make the most of the time we are given! Choose to be happy, fight for what you love and never settle!
